When you get an email from a friend and fellow photographer asking if you can please take her photos there is a certain emotion which comes along with that. It's a weird emotion to describe. Sheer terror is one. Proud is another. And the rest fall somewhere on the spectrum between these two.
So when Bec of Forever Pixels Photography asked me if I could take photos of her and her husband for their wedding anniversary I was quietly proud that another photographer would ask me to take her photo, while quietly panicking that I would fail and be judged and be exposed for being a fraud and all that self-talk which goes along with feeling exposed and vulnerable!!
Pretty sure everyone feels like this at some point! Those moments when I feel most exposed are those moments when the self-talk is at its peak - I can almost convince myself that I'm going to fail, that I don't belong in this field, that I'm not a real photographer... Then I remember how much I absolutely love photography. How when I see the perfect combination of a great sunset and a fun loving family or couple which have asked ME to take their photos, and it just makes my heart sing!! Once I start a photo session these fears disappear as I get myself completely lost in the moment.
Of course, none of those worst fears actually happened. We had a glorious sunset along my favourite hill, and lots of laughter and fun and ended up with a gorgeous gallery of images for Bec and James!